Tag: Anxiety

  • Return Flight

    IMG_0404_1Some people just wait

    you know, just wait until the door is closing

    to run up and say, “Wait for me

    I’m boarding, too!”

    on that plane to somewhere.

     

    Sitting in the metal tube

    feeling scared 30,000 feet in the air

    going 150 miles an hour

    adding your weight to the tons

    that must stay aloft for hours.

     

    Wondering if a bomb will go off

    yet longing for adventure

    (horseback, covered wagon, car, train)

    those engines whining for hours

    the invisible pilot coping with boredom,

     

    fatigue. Smell the recycled air

    enter the germy restroom

    knock against your too-close neighbor

    with his shoes off, his elbow hogging the entire arm-rest

    his body too close

     

    his breath too close

    as if he could blow his way home

    like the big, bad wolf blowing the house down

    around the little piggies

    eating up meals in boxes.

     

    (Drink water! Avoid alcohol!)

    Wrap yourself in the tissue-thin

    blankets, tiny pillow at your back,

    eat with the plastic

    fork the hot risotto or cold chicken.

     

    Stuff yourself with everything

    remotely edible (cheese, crackers, chocolate)

    but enjoy the hot towelete

    handed you with a metal tong

    by the tired attendant

     

    coping with swollen ankles

    and jet lag and seniority battles.

    Don’t forget you can

    track your flight on the screen

    count down the minutes elapsing

     

    watch another movie in the darkness

    (Casablanca, Everest, Grumpy Old Men)

    the blinds pulled down against the light

    don’t stand and look down the aisle

    at the faces staring at you.

     

    Do stand up every hour

    and stretch by your seat

    that precious space is yours

    until you set down on that runway

    the jolt of earth embracing you

     

    now rolling down the asphalt

    disoriented but sensing safety

    in your bones

    certain, finally,

    you have come home.

     

    FEWalls March 25, 2016